Lately, I've been feeling really disconnected from everything. I mean, there are still somethings that I can connect to (music sometimes, friendships, etc) but as far as life goes I feel real incomplete like something big out there is just missing.
When you're younger, I guess knowing what you want means "Mom, can I go outside and play", pretty damn simple, but as I get older knowing exactly what I want gets more and more complicated and the answers become less and less available. Why? Actually, I take some of this back.. I do know somethings I want, for instance I really want to travel, I still want to do music to a point, I want to see things, experience things that I have yet to experience but above that I feel very empty, like something is out there but I have yet to reach it.
One thing I've learned, at least for myself is, I cannot get ANYWHERE I want to be alone. I feed off of other people's energy and drive and they are the motivation behind my movements. I mean, I have my personal drive but other people are really what make me and you know what? I'm ok with that. I enjoy having people around I can depend on because like the quote goes "Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born". I truly believe that. I believe that people unlock things that you yourself cannot do alone, and through my associations and friendships I have learned so much about myself and the world.
So I guess this is about gaining self peace. Realizing the friendships have to be 10% of the 90% inner peace we find in ourselves. Until I get that I will be searching...
So.. Does anyone else feel like that sometimes?
Here's a video to match my mood:
Levi Weaver: You Are Home
Yessss,
Rhias?!?!
this is not acceptable. lol. at least wale. i know big sean is new to the scene. but all those dudes get me in my creative mode. oh! cant forget cudder!
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